Thursday Thoughts – personality tests & self-judgment

Hi there!

Have you seen that quiz that’s been circling around on Facebook? The one where you find your personality type?

(If you haven’t or if, for some reason you’re not on Facebook, here are a couple of links to similar quizzes: Jung Typology Test™ and 16Personalities.)

Well, that quiz is based off the Myers-Briggs assessment and is surprisingly accurate for just a few questions.

I’ve taken the full Myers-Briggs assessment before – it was actually a requirement and part of orientation at a previous place of employment – at least twice and I score the same each time. I scored the same with this quiz.

Basically, you’re asked a bunch of questions that you are supposed to answer honestly – and no, this isn’t like those “Which Disney Princess are you?” quizzes where you have to pick an answer regardless of whether or not it’s true and “none of the above” is not an option. I hate those. It’s more “which do you prefer?” or “how does this situation make you feel?” type questions.

Then, you’re given a 4 letter “type” based off your answers.

The first letter is either an I or an E: Introvert or Extrovert.

If you don’t know, an introvert is the quiet, reserved person who probably is perfectly happy staying home reading a book or sitting silently in a meeting and the extrovert is the one who has no problems speaking, maybe getting up and singing karaoke, loves attention, etc.

The second letter is either an S or an N: Sensing or iNtuition.

This letter refers to how you process information or how you perceive things. A “sensing” person is usually pretty realistic, practical, and detail oriented. An “intuitive” person is usually innovative, forward-thinking, and imaginative.

The third letter is either a T or an F: Thinking or Feeling.

This basically refers to how you prefer to make decisions. This is also the trait that can, in my personal experience, cause heads to butt (Seriously, that’s just a funny thing to say! Haha! Okay, I’m done being a 12 year old boy.). A thinker is more analytical, objective, and rational, while a feeler tends to be sensitive, compassionate, and empathetic. Thinkers tend to leave their feelings out of the decision-making process and go for facts and feelers go with their gut and pay little attention to data charts, etc. Makes for an interesting meeting, to say the least.

The final letter is either a P or a J: Perception or Judgment.

This is basically how you handle or organize your life. A “judger” is often conscientious, loyal, and dedicated and a “perceiver” is often more flexible, accepting, tolerant, and open-minded.

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I’m an ISTJ.

According to Myers-Briggs, that means I’m “quietly systematic, factual, organized, logical, detailed, conscientious, analytical, responsible, pragmatic, critical, conservative, decisive, stable, concrete, efficient.”

According to truity.com, “Popular hobbies for the ISTJ include concentration games like chess and Trivial Pursuit, playing computer games, watching sporting events, pursuing physical fitness, and playing solitary sports such as golf.”

Hmmm…..pursuing physical fitness…..interesting…..

Still with me? Good. I have a point, I promise. :)

Let’s talk about my final letter – the J. Judgment. The letter that leads to the descriptive adjective: critical.

When you take the actual Myers-Briggs test, you get a chart that shows you where you place with one letter being on one side and the other being on the opposite side.

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Please note that while those results are for an ISTJ, those are not my personal results. I was just lucky enough to find a picture of what I was describing with ISTJ as the personality type.

Anyhoo, back to my J.

I’m WAYYYYY over on the J side.

Like, I barely have any P in me. (hahahahah! 12 year old boy again. sorry.)

Okay, seriously, my point. I’m getting there.

While the J is described as “systematic, loyal, dedicated, methodical,” etc….there is some judgmental in there. Otherwise, “critical” wouldn’t be in the description.

I try not to be judgmental of others because there’s just really no need for that and it’s just wasted energy but sometimes, I just can’t help it.

Like, when a person professes to be proficient in grammar or is an English teacher, and then posts/shares/emails things that are rife with spelling and grammatical errors. Yes, it’s true, I’m totally judging them.

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But,the person that I judge the most is me.

And I KNOW I’m not the only person in the world guilty of that.

And no, I don’t mean guilty of judging ME but guilty of judging themselves. If you’re judging me, you better stop or I’ll poke your eyes out. ;)

Yesterday, at CrossFit, I totally judged myself and my performance and not in a positive manner.

There’s this girl who is probably 15-20 years younger than me and is super tiny (both in height and weight. a stiff wind might knock her over.) and she’s also wicked strong.

The WOD was running, 10 pistol squats (alternating legs), and 2 rope climbs, every 5 minutes for 4 rounds.

Now, I’m still taking my running slowly because I don’t want to push myself too hard and reinjure my foot, and I KNOW THIS and I UNDERSTAND THIS, but when we went out the door on the run (400m sprint), I instantly felt like a slug watching her take off.

Then, she knocks out the pistols like they’re a piece of cake – which didn’t bother me, for some reason – and climbs the rope twice SUPER FAST like it’s nothing.

It takes me FOREVER to climb the ropes. Well, probably not forever, but for the first 2 rounds, I used the entire 5 minutes to knock out everything and I was the last one climbing while everyone else was resting. Then, the last 2 rounds, I could only manage 1 rope climb each time. She was still knocking out both AND still had time to rest!

And, she can do 5 strict pull ups in a row.

I’m at 3, which is actually a pretty big deal for me.

But, I was totally judging myself based on HER performance. Wtf?

I don’t usually do that. I like to take inspiration from other athletes but I don’t usually let their strengths intimidate me or make me feel like I’m lacking in any way.

Why did I turn into my own worst enemy?

Interestingly enough, that self-judgment came the same week that Renee Zellwegger is being judged for looking different. People are being overly critical about the possibility over her having plastic surgery. OMG, she’s got somebody else’s face, she looks so different, blah, blah, blah. Sheesh, people, she’s aging and she’s gorgeous and she’s HUMAN and that’s what happens to HUMANS. Good grief.

Why is it such big news?!

Yes, I’m aware she elected a career that puts her in the spotlight, in front of millions of people, but still……why can’t she age/be herself without being judged?

I feel as if I’m going to digress too much so I need to reign myself back in. I want to get to my point.

Critical of myself. Judging my abilities based on someone else’s abilities.

I need to stop doing that.

We all need to stop doing that to ourselves.

I’m strong, I’m in great shape, I can do 3 strict pull ups in a row, I can deadlift more than 200 pounds, I’ve run 8 marathons, I love to cook and can do so pretty well, I’m smart, I’m a ginger (now that’s something to be proud of!), and I’m not the best at everything and that’s okay because it gives me goals to set and work towards.

Could you imagine how exhausting it would be to be the best at EVERYTHING?

My point is (I told you I had one!!!) – don’t judge yourself, or be overly critical of yourself, based on the skills and abilities of others, whether you have a J in your personality type or not.

Just say NO to those evil voices in your head.

Work hard, be you, and appreciate who you are and what you can do.

Oh, and in case you’re wondering, I yelled at myself – may or may not have been out loud – and pulled my thoughts back to my own abilities and getting through the WOD. And then I fist-bumped the girl who kicked my butt and told her she was bad ass. :)

Talk to me: What’s your personality type? (um, if you didn’t take the quiz, do it now!) Have you ever caught yourself judging or being overly critical of yourself? Do you talk to yourself, sometimes out loud?

- jennifer

Not my normal Monday post – go hug your family!

Hi there.

You’re probably wondering why I didn’t do a Weekly Eats post yesterday and I’m not doing a Sunday food prep post today.

Well, I’ll tell you.

I was kinda all over the place with my food last week, what with Thing 2’s oral surgery and all, and didn’t take pictures of all my meals, of which most were random and weird.

Plus, I went up to my folks’ house this weekend.

To help my mom.

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My grandmother is not doing very well.

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That picture was from Saturday.

This picture was from a month ago – ish.

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And this one was from February, when she turned 94.

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As you can see, she’s having a rough year.

And my mom is too because she’s caring for her and trying to do it all.

She told me not to come. I think she was trying to “protect” me. Moms tend to do that.

But, she was really happy that I came anyway. Because she needed my help.

(My dad can’t help her either but that’s a whole different conversation. Getting old sucks.)

I don’t normally share such things but it’s all I can think about right now.

It’s hard to see my grandma so frail and fragile and it’s hard to see my mom so stressed.

(Don’t let that smiling picture up there fool you – we put our smiles on for an “us-ie.” Um, that’s a selfie with more than 1 person. ;)

It was also hard to leave them and come home yesterday. But I had to.

We’re at the in-home hospice care stage (just started that this week) and my heart skips a few beats and lands in my stomach every time my phone rings and it’s my mom or my sister.

So, yeah.

Tell your family that you love them and hug them while you still can.

- jennifer

Weekly workout recap – the one where I picked up heavy rocks

Hello!

I know this is coming to you a little later in the day but I had a small road trip to take.

I’m currently hanging out with my folks and my grandma. :)

There’s lots to do so I’ll get right to it.

This week of workouts was pretty awesome!

Monday

It was a holiday. And I didn’t have to work. And Thing 2 was getting her teeth extracted the next day. So,

I took a rest day and hung out with her and went out for Indian food.

Tuesday

AM Garage workout

Started my morning off with a 1 mile run. Yep, that’s right. A RUN!

I know I ran last week but this was my first morning run. It was blissful! And short. And my Garmin didn’t

record it, for some reason. But still, I ran!!

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Then, I hopped on the elliptical for a 30 minute workout.

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Thing 2 is getting her wisdom teeth out today and I’m definitely nervous for her.  I know it’ll be fine – people get their wisdom teeth taken out every day but still. She’s my baby – even if she’s not so little anymore.

No CrossFit today because I was making sure she had everything she needed.

Wednesday

6pm CrossFit

 Man, I don’t think I ate enough today! Or, maybe it’s because I hadn’t been at the box in 5 days.

Whatever it was, this workout kicked my booty!

Coach had us play a little game on the rower as a warm-up. We had to try to row exactly 100m. If you’ve

ever rowed before, you know that’s no easy task. I got close each time (102, 102, 101, 102) but no cigar.

There was mention of “punishment” (read: burpees) for however much you went over/under (my total

was +7) but thankfully, nothing came of it. Phew!

Then, we got down to business.

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There aren’t enough rowers so we had to split up the class. I started with the rower group while the

others started on the double unders.

Man, this part really kicked my butt! By the time round 3 came along, I was giving serious consideration

to stepping over the rower rather than jumping it. My legs were like lead!! But, I still jumped. I finished a

full 3 rounds and was on the 5th burpee in the 4th round when time was called.

That 5 minute rest was the best thing ever!

Next up were the double unders. :/

Man, I haven’t jumped since before the boot and I didn’t have double unders then at all. Coach wanted

attempts but I quickly realized that it would take me all day. So, I did 60 singles instead.

Apparently, I need work on my singles – or – I was a little afraid to do too much jumping because I

missed a little more frequently than normal. It’s fine. I’ll get back there. #patiencegrasshopper

I squeaked out 4 complete rounds and was 4 toes-to-bar into the 5th

I was so glad when this workout was over!

Thursday

AM workout

2 MILE RUN!!!

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It felt really good and the weather was just perfect! I even managed to zone out a little and didn’t see

the person walking her dog. Ooops!

Then, I was blessed to see this on my way to CrossFit.

I love where I live!!

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6pm CrossFit

I love workouts that are just body-weight movements!

But, I didn’t really love this one.

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Just kidding. Actually, it was kinda fun for as much as it sucked!

It was a 20 minute AMRAP (as many rounds as possible) of an ascending ladder of pull ups, sit ups, and

push ups – 3, 6, 9, 12, 15, 18, 21, 24, …. etc

Basically, you do 3 pull ups, 3 sit ups, 3 push ups, then 6 pull ups, 6 sit ups, 6 push ups, 9 pull ups, 9 sit

ups, 9 push ups, etc until the 20 minutes is up. Your score is whatever number you actually completed. I

got through 21.

Barely.

I was seriously pushing out my last few push ups as the clock was counting down!

I kipped ALL the pull ups!

Which, if you’re interested, totaled 84.

Yep, 84 pull ups, 84 sit ups, and 84 push ups.

I did about a third of the push ups regular and the rest I did on my knees because I was seriously losing

form.

Hey, what can I say? I was working my muscles pretty hard!

Friday

6pm CrossFit

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We did Atlas Stone skill work to start.

I’ve never worked with the Atlas Stones.

Basically, we’re just picking up heavy rocks. Haha!

The lighter stones didn’t have weights written on them but I think the one I worked with was about 50# or so.

I tried to pick up the one in between that one and the one that was marked 110# but I couldn’t even lift it off the ground.

Which, honestly, kinda boggled me. Because I can deadlift 200#. Why couldn’t I pick up that stupid stone?!?! lol

It was kinda fun, though. :)

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Then, the WOD.

Holy. Rowing. Hell.

20 Minute EMOM (every minute on the minute) row for distance with a partner.

Basically, it was a sprint row.

Spring for 1 minute and switch. For 20 minutes.

I normally enjoy rowing but this sucked bad.

I reached the “I’m going to die” feeling right before coach yelled “10 seconds” each time. So Hard!!

My partner and I rowed 4514m.

Saturday

I had originally planned on sleeping in.

Because I was tired.

But, I got up and ran anyway.

2 miles.

The draw of the road was too much. :)

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 Talk to me: How was your week? Do any new workouts?

- jennifer